The 9 Year Cycle
- the end of an era -
going back to claim your future
The old is dying and
the new cannot
be born. In the interim, a great variety
of morbid symptoms appear.
Antonio Gramsci
The 9 year cycle
brings you to the end of a complete nine-year cycle of your life. It is a year
of completing unfinished business, reaching conclusions and tying up loose ends.
These actions will help you step into the next nine years of your life without
the pressure of unresolved matters of the past pulling you back.
As one door closes
another opens, but if you refuse to accept that certain doors really have
closed, you will be unable recognize the new doors and possibilities. It is time
to face the absolute reality of your past - and how it is impacting your
present, and then decide how you want to create your future. Your reality is not
just a matter of where you stand today or where you want to be tomorrow. It is
made up of everything that has ever happened to you, everyone you have ever met,
anything you have ever done, and any feeling you have ever felt - or denied.
Where you stand today
is the result of where you have been. But, before you can move ahead, you must
release yourself emotionally, mentally, or physically, from those aspects which
no longer serve a purpose and are chaining you to a point in time that no longer
exists. It is time to integrate your past with the present, so that the
potential of your future can be seen and felt. This is achieved by accepting the
past exactly as it was and by feeling everything about it that you have been
unable to feel.
A significant
transformation is likely. There will be alterations and improvements to all
areas of your life, even though you may not immediately see the positive merits
of certain situations. When the old buried emotion that is weighing you down is
released, life suddenly becomes a much lighter experience and is more easily
understood and enjoyed. If you feel a sense of numbness or stagnation, it is
because you are so close to accepting your reality but are holding the emotions
involved in, instead of expressing them out. The magnetic pressure
involved prevents forward movement and draws you to a repeat of the very
situations you would prefer to avoid. We have all been conditioned to believe
that emotional expression denotes weakness and is "negative". In fact, emotional
expression is our strength, our own self-healing mechanism, our only means of
freedom, and the ultimate tool of creativity.
People who refuse to
accept the past spend their lives rehashing the same old situations, making the
same old mistakes, unable to accept new realities, and dissatisfied with
everything. They find ways to left their unsatisfactory existence by blaming
others, blaming time, blaming life itself, and sometimes blaming themselves.
Stubborn unchanging beliefs cause people to embrace sayings such as "Life's a
bitch and then you die.", or "There's nothing you can do about it, so why
even try?" It often seems easier to accept these excuses than to accept our
responsibility to live freely.
Some people claim to
be apart from or above the journey humanity is taking, all the time resenting
that they are too afraid to be a part of it. And, because none of us has truly
evolved into Free Will yet, we are all effected by these misunderstandings.
This year, it is not
enough to simply have an intellectual understanding of Free Will. You will learn
that your feelings are your only means of activating personal freedom. This year
of endings and conclusions offers you the chance to free yourself of the
erroneous beliefs that have always caused unhappiness,
dissatisfaction, and stagnation. The 9 year cycle teaches you how to break free
from the past by releasing your grip on it. Without this understanding,
you will forever be a victim of something that once happened to you. It is time
to heal.
Nothing new happens
in the 9 year cycle until the necessary endings take place. The more you strive
to begin something new without first releasing the old, the more resistance life
will give you. If you do not make an effort to accept your emotional realities
this year, you will find that your history will simply repeat itself in the next
nine years.
This is a year to go
back over your life's continuous journey and consider everything that happened
to you. There will be things you don't want to remember; memories you may be
blocking from your consciousness. These are the very events and situations that
need to be addressed. These are the heavy loads that are weighing on you like an
anchor, preventing you from moving forward into the kind of life you desire. The
more genuine intent you have to allow forgotten memories to resurface,
the easier it will become to accept 9's healing process.
It is the sheer
weight of past and present emotion that causes depression, even though we try to
fool ourselves into believing that depression can be avoided by avoiding these
emotions. This pretense creates deeper denial and, eventually, deeper
depression. If you find yourself dwelling on certain emotions such as anger,
fear, or grief to the extent that you cannot live constructively, there is a
good chance you are using these emotions as an excuse for continuing to deny
another emotion which is even more deeply buried. Denial is no longer an option
on this Earth. In fact, it is denial that has caused many of the dire problems
that humanity faces today. This applies as much to your personal life as it does
to life in general.
Being afraid to feel
your feelings is a natural response. The only way to deal with this fear is to
understand that fear, like all other feelings, must be allowed to follow its own
evolutionary process. It must be allowed to move. When you cling to fear
you are refusing to accept its ability to help you. And, by stopping its
movement you, in turn, become paralyzed by it.
Feel your fear,
accept its presence, and allow it to move through you, and out of you. This
process develops courage, and the ability to recognize those things which really
do need to be feared, and those which need not be feared at all. Your
feelings are your senses and instincts which, in turn, are vital to your
survival.
Be honest with
yourself. Mere positive thinking can do more harm than good if you are not
simultaneously feeling that way. Your thoughts and feelings are two very
different energies and must be experienced separately so that you can tell them
apart. However, when your masculine thoughts and feminine feelings make peace
with each other and join forces, your personal power to survive and prosper
increases significantly, and your entire being evolves.
The 9 vibration takes
you in what seems like the wrong direction - backwards - but this is the
direction you must take in order to find the unfinished issues which are
preventing you from going forward. It is natural for the 9 year cycle to be an
emotional one. Not only will you be dealing with emotions from the past, but
also with new emotional situations in the present which, in effect, help trigger
the old feelings which need to be released.
This year's
circumstances may be reenactments of the past, in different forms, representing
the consequences of certain actions, inaction, beliefs, and attitudes. You
cannot live fully in the present if part of you is stuck in the past. Therefore,
you will want to go back and retrieve those parts of yourself that are stuck
there.
Generosity and
compassion play important roles this year. By achieving a greater depth of
feeling in yourself, you will become more sympathetic to other people's
realities and more aware of how you, and they, are compounding certain problems
by denying the feelings involved. You will also become aware of the difference
between compassion and guilt.
If you are involved
in something reluctantly, guilt may have convinced you that it's the 'right'
thing to do. Maybe it is. Maybe it isn't. But the only way you will ever be sure
is by letting your own feelings guide you. It is in the 9 year cycle that we
realize the extent to which guilt has kept us from achieving happiness and how
much we have denied guilt by reversing it into blame.
In the 9 year,
unhappy memories arise so they can be healed, creating more inner space for
happiness to resurface. Inaccurate beliefs are replaced by new truths and
potentials. As you accept what has happened to you, you develop a clearer
picture of what you want to happen. The old you becomes the present you,
and your Will - your desire - determines the future you.
Not all endings have
unhappy emotions attached. Some situations will be concluded, bringing you much
relief. Don't assume the worst. Accept that your past is the ground you had to
cover in order to get to where you want to be. Your understanding of this will
make your 9 year one of the most exhilarating and dynamic journeys you will ever
travel.
