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2020 HOLD ON! LET GO!

2020 is a phenomenal number. The emotional healing of lifetimes and generations, individuals and nations, lies ahead. Humanity is evolving, reluctantly, painfully, and chaotically.

It is often said that life is “a balance of holding on and letting go” – and we must learn when to hold on – and when to let go – as we make our way through the chaos of 2020. The horrors we are experiencing on Earth are the result of trying to exit the past before we have learned what it has to teach. So, the past keeps repeating until we learn.

Time moves forever forward.  It is WE who stand still until reality finally sinks in, and the path ahead can be seen more clearly. And it is clearly a difficult path. 2020 adds up to 4, which brings out our most difficult lessons.

“People are trapped in history, and history is trapped in them.”  ~James Baldwin

We are trapped between two very different segments of time – the masculine 1000s and the feminine 2000s. The “strongmen” (reflections of the past) are rising all over the world – in their full despicability – to prevent our unstoppable transition into equality and balance.

Another common saying is, “hindsight is 20/20” which implies that things that are obvious now were not obvious while they were happening. At least, not to all. The state of the natural world and the mass extinction of multiple species is a prime example of how we have denied the human impact on the very environment that enables us to exist. People see it now, along with the fact that the human species can also be wiped out. And if this should happen, it will be self-inflicted.

The Antarctic Peninsula is among the fastest-warming regions on earth ©Getty Images

This month, it was reported by the World Meteorological Organization that the temperatures on Antarctica/South Pole are the hottest ever and are melting its massive glaziers and ice sheets far more rapidly than expected. This puts not only coastal areas around the world in greater jeopardy, but also the world’s inland waterways which drain into the oceans. The first month of 2020 saw the hottest January temperatures ever, all across Europe.

Without full attention on climate change, our self-destructive system will destroy us. Our antiquated governments, and the industries they answer to, are reducing environmental oversight instead of upholding or increasing it. They attack Mother Nature first and foremost because she is THE MOTHER LODE – she is where everything comes from. They must therefore control her. And In doing so, they control our ability to feel and sense. SHE, Mother Nature, is the source of feminine energy on Earth.

“Ms. McSpadden, what will it take to bring peace to the streets of Ferguson?”

“Justice.”

We cannot continue to deny the overwhelming role that racism plays in the ongoing global chaos. How can this tired old system not be racist when it is based on racing, competing, being first, biggest, fastest, richest, and best?

The “human race” is not our species, it is the system itself. We are free evolving beings who are captured in a system fueled by hatred for the ‘other side’, and the belief that “winning” is everything. These brutal divide-and-conquer tactics are where so much of the hatred comes from! And it is much easier to control people in the grip of orchestrated chaos.

But a system that depends on secrecy and behind-the-scenes manipulation cannot survive in the 2000s because 2 is the number of transparency and openness, and exposes what is happening in the background. Then, when the truth emerges, there is an enormous but visible effort to cover it up.

A system that believes white people are the ‘norm’ while everyone else is somehow inferior cannot survive in the 2000s because 2 is the number of equality and balance. Meanwhile, there is an enormous but visible effort to keep “minorities” down, even though the combined minority is very much the majority.

A system that runs on selfishness cannot survive in the 2000s because 2 is the number of empathy and caring. Meanwhile, the level of cruelty dealt out to people, animals, and all aspects of life is visibly intensified, and we live in a state of constant humanitarian and environmental crisis.

This old system depends on we the people NOT becoming the powerful beings we can be when we’re being our true selves. 1 is the number of SELF – and being more aware of our own identity (self-awareness) was a major role of the decade of the 10s, which ended just a few weeks ago.

Foresight is 10 10.

Insight is 11 11.

Hindsight is 20 20.

In order to move forward we must understand WHY we are in this mess. 2020 = BALANCE, which is the result of EQUALITY. And because 2 also = sensitivity and caring, 2020 provides the motivation to firmly COMMIT to what we are aiming for. 11 11 provides the inspiration. 10 10 takes us to the next level – which is where we are now!

creative numerology

Look at the equals sign. It is 11 observed from a different angle. Being able to see the numbers from different angles lets us see the flexibility in life. It enables us to see other points of view besides our own. We can home-in on a specific aspect – and we can also take a broader view and see all the different connections involved. 2 = CONNECTION. And we are ALL connected – every single 1 of us.

We are learning to LET GO of old perceptions and HOLD ON to a realistic sense of self (ego) as we weave our way through conflicting states of mind and emotion. We have to be prepared for this inner turmoil – and savor the instances of new awareness and possibility. This is a time of invention and societal progress, based on NEW understanding – not the same tired old ways.

2020 is a MOMENTOUS year in the human journey in which we must learn about the power of 1 – the number of BEGINNINGS, ORIGINS, the INDIVIDUAL, the SELF, INDEPENDENCE, ACTION, CHANGE, LEADERSHIP, and MASCULINE ENERGY. We cannot find stability in the feminine 2000s until we do, just as we cannot cross a bridge until we come to it. Understanding masculine 1 is the bridge to feminine 2 – because 2 is always made of two 1s.

1 is the FIRST number, and 11 is the 1st of 9 Master Numbers. Master Numbers are TRANSFORMERS, and we are in a major transformation of humanity in these early days of the 2000s.

2020 seems to be a predetermined point in time when feminine 2 rises and brings balance within ourselves (1 = self), and within our species (1+1 = each other). 2020 is what the whole 11:11 phenomenon has been leading to – making this a crucial turning point in the human journey.

1+1=2.

11+11=22=4.

2+0+2+0=4.

11:11 means many things to many people. To some, it means nothing at all. But from the standpoint of numerology, the events of 2020 can help us understand who we are, why we are here, and decide for ourselves the direction we want to take. Both 2 and 4 help us to look more closely and patiently at the details.

So, HOLD ON, WORLD! The results of the past are pouring into the present. The closer we get to the truth, the more dangerous the world becomes. So, LET GO, WORLD, of the systemic programming which tells us that we have no power. We have more power than we have ever been allowed to imagine. We just have to recognize the Will for what it is – and develop it – efficiently – with loving intent.

We are learning about our own power to change things, and the power of others to prevent such changes. The imbalance on Earth has always been about the power of individuals to overpower other individuals. We have been programmed to believe there is nothing we can do about it. We even call them the ‘powers that be’ – or – the ‘ruling class’ – titles of the class system that suggest they have a divine right to overpower everyone else. They do not. And the fact that they believe they do, shows just how deep their denial of reality runs.

4 is the number of system, and in 2020, this collapsing greed-driven system is likely to be severely shaken by events that are beyond its ability to control. Once they can no longer deny that a problem exists, they will deny that they caused it and blame others. 2 = TRANSPARENCY – and in 2020, more than ever, we can see right through the deception and lies.

We are now in a rapid evolutionary phase which is forcing us to recognize the very part of us that is being controlled. Our WILL.

So, HOLD ON world! It’s time to LET GO of the past and create the future. But do keep in mind that 4 is the number of success through HARD WORK, DEDICATION, DETERMINATION, and working through LIMITATIONS and OBSTACLES. This will not be an easy year. 4 requires great EFFORT.

HOLD ON! And LET GO of the notion that we are unable to help ourselves.  Indeed, helping ourselves is the nature of this evolutionary process. The process of freeing the human WILL can only be done by the human Will.

And while we must resist the total capture of the Will, we must also  FREE those parts of our Will that are captured. And keep in mind that it is the Will that enables us to resist in the first place.

No one is free. We are all owned by this global system, the nature of which is ownership. Even those who control it are chained to it by their greed and fear of loss. 

The system wants us to believe that we have no Will of our own, but just look at how the Will of the people keeps rising up to free herself, all over the world.

A major part of freeing the Will is to stretch our imaginations and open our minds – so that alternative ways to exist and flourish can be envisaged, created, and upheld.

It is not just human beings who have a WILL. All of life, the animals, and the planet herself, have WILL energy, feminine energy, depth, darkness, gravity, magnetism, and emotion. And all of life has CONSCIOUSNESS, masculine energy, light, action, electricity, and intellect. Yin and Yang. Without this understanding, we can never eradicate the utter cruelty, self-indulgence, and corruption that is attacking all areas of life.

A major change of gears is in progress. It began as December 1999 flowed into January 2000. On September 11, 2001, the world’s biggest physical symbol of 11 – the World Trade Center in New York was destroyed, and the world has been in turmoil ever since. That was the first IMPACT of the global transformation that we’re now experiencing.

FREE WILL starts with the freedom to express outwardly what we feel inwardly. This is what propels us. This is what is meant by ‘living from the inside out’. Humanity is learning to be moved by our feelings, instead of treating them as mental glitches. We cannot be the free spirits we are until we realize the true purpose, power, and importance of our feminine vibration. 2 teaches us how to do this without being so overwhelmed by feelings that we become a danger to ourselves and others.

2 = perspective, perception, purpose, and appropriateness.  2 = growing up, maturing, and being able to withstand the realities of life instead of denying them. And it does seem that THE WALL of our own denials is starting to crack. As denial falls away, reality stares back at us, and our minds expand with new awareness. Until we understand the true power, purpose, and complexity of emotion, we will continue to be manipulated by those who have learned how to turn our own feelings into weapons to use against us.

This is not a matter of emotional people imposing their feelings on the populace, but of emotionless people casting deliberate emotional blows that are so cruel that we often can’t believe that such heartlessness is possible. They are able to do this because they are unable to feel anything at all – other than hate – which is not an emotion. Hate is emotional disease. An illness of the sensory system. Hate is the absence of love.

Emotion is our inner-radar system which measures and interprets our outer experiences. Emotional intelligence is so powerful that those who control the world cannot allow us to recognize or develop this power – the power of our own Free Will. Resisting this oppression is essential if we are to evolve out of this tragic segment of the journey. As we gain inner balance between masculine mind and feminine emotion, within the physical body, we bring balance into life – and life into balance.

But masculine mind often plays victim when feminine emotion gets too close. And when victimhood takes hold, empathy dies. Then, the only concern is ‘looking out for number 1’ – the SELF.   Ignorance believes it is intelligence – and hate takes over from there.

2 gives us sensitivity. 2 enables us to sense our way along. 2 is sensible. 2 makes sense of things. 2 organizes and coordinates. Feminine 2 expands and develops what masculine 1 has to offer (1+1=2) and opens up space in which ideas can take shape instead of remaining mere mental concepts.

2 is DETAIL.

2 is DEPTH.

2 is a gentle slow-moving energy – but if you try to push against it or speed it up, it pushes back hard and slows you down even more! 2 is the number of patience, attention to detail, right timing, and it feeds the mind with intelligence.

…and look where we are right now.

February is the 2nd month of 2020 – a 22/4 Year. The millennium of the 2000s has just completed 2 DECADES. And now we’re in the decade of the 20s. And on February 2, 2020, we passed through the palindromic date of

0 2 0 2 2 0 2 0

…which is a true rarity.

A palindrome reads the same forwards as it does backwards. So, what was its message? To begin with, it tells us that events and circumstances could go either way. The outcome is not set in stone. 2 denotes CHOICE. And the controlling forces are determined to reduce our choices to just 2 options: do as we say, or we will attack you. And look at the 22, right in the center. The number of the MASTER BUILDER – and the MASTER DESTROYER.

There is a LOT of 22 energy in the flow right now. For instance, DONALD TRUMP was born on the 22/4 Life Path (6+14+2=22/4). He was born in a 2 Year. (1+9+4+6=2+0=2).  He is in a 4 Year in 2020.

22 is the number of GREATNESS. 22 is the most balanced form of 4. But when its intent is unloving, its cold-heartedness is MAGNIFIED. When 2’s perspective is unbalanced, it confuses coldness with greatness. When 22 is in careless or unloving hands, it can be ultra-destructive.

The word GREAT is open to constant interpretation. Greatness can refer to MAGNITUDE, SIZE, IMMENSITY, and IMPACT – or the SERIOUSNESS or SIGNIFICANCE of something. Without these distinctions, we are unable to respond appropriately to the very real emergencies that are happening all over the world, including the continued attacks on the GREATNESS of feminine energy – MOTHER EARTH herself.

We cannot merely shrug and say: “we’ll see what happens.”  Part of what it takes to evolve into Free Will is finding a way to make something happen – to create the changes that will set us free. 4 is the number of BREAKTHROUGH. 4 is also the number of PRIORITY – and many of our priorities must change this year.

In 2020, we must find our way through the haze of lies and deception.  However, this constant uncertainty has a purpose: to force us out of our complacency and ACCEPT the need for NEW ideas and solutions, especially as far as leadership is concerned.

1 = LEADERSHIP. 1 also = CHANGE. It is time to change our definition of leadership. 1 teaches us that we are not here to be ‘led’ but to learn how to lead our own lives. The purpose of government, therefore, is to hold the balance points open so that ALL of life can flow and flourish, not just a selected portion of it.

While 4 can bring great limitations, it also represents SUCCESS through hard work, dedication, determination, and meticulous attention to detail. 4 separates fact from fiction. Only the truth will do. 4 = ORDER, METHOD, PROCESS, and RESULT.

On the other hand, 4 can be so prone to order and correctness, that it becomes obsessed by an unshakable need to be right. 4 can go to great lengths to push back when a belief is challenged or when its ‘norm’ feels threatened. In this case, senses become hardened, including the sense of compassion. 4’s over-reliance on logic can dull the mind because it shuts off (denies) the possibility that it could be wrong and closes itself off to alternatives. There are a lot of closed minds in the world, but let’s not get smug about this. We ALL have areas of unconsciousness from which we need to evolve. The circumstances of 2020 can help us do this.

4 represents the heart chakra. And the heart is where courage comes from (not the testicles as masculine 1 would have us believe). The vibrations of 2020 will help us to open our hearts and be brave when we need to be.

I’ll be writing more as 2020 unfolds.

“To make one good action succeed another is the perfection of goodness.”  ~Ali ibn abi Talib


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WEEK 41 – PAY ATTENTION!

This week’s numerology urges us to PAY ATTENTION to what is going on, even though the pace of events is so hard to keep up with. Week 41 is a 5 week (4+1=5) which sparks our intellectual curiosity and a desire to be better informed. In the 4 1 5 vibration, we want to get things ‘right’. We want to understand.

Practical 4 seeks out and corrects inaccuracy. 4 represents challenge, strictness, restriction, and success through effort and determination. 1 represents the individual, the ego, one-step-at-a-time movement, and progressive change. 5 represents sudden change, unexpected development, the physical world, our physical bodies, “all walks of life”, variety, variation, and freedom.

Tuesday, October 10 brings us into 10  10  10  10 energy.

Decade = 10

Year = 10

Month = 10

Day = 10

10  10  10  10 = 40.

This corresponds with this 10 week cycle in which all the week numbers begin with 4, (Week 40 to 49).

The last time we experienced the quadruple-10 sequence was 9 years ago, on October 10th, 2008. On that date, the stock markets across Europe, Asia, and the USA crashed. The system was broken by greed and incompetence, and so began an unprecedented financial crisis that is still affecting economies today.

So here we are, moving through that volatile 10  10  10  10 energy again, but even more vulnerable this time around. Human rights, at so many levels, are being violated on a scale we have seldom seen before. Slavery never ended. It just changed its outer appearance – and its name. In this age of transparency, its diabolical image is reappearing, but now it’s called ‘trafficking’.

10 Downing Street is very much in the spotlight. The British Government’s Headquarters is often referred to as simply, “Number 10”. And this seat of global power is in uncommon disharmony at this time.

Environmental disasters are happening with greater frequency and impact, while our assault on Mother Earth worsens. There are more displaced people in the world now than after World War 2. Human and animal suffering never ends. Then there is the threat of nuclear engagement in which millions of lives are at stake – while the gigantic yet fragile egos of leaders Donald Trump and Kim Jong-un spar with each other. October 10 is a big day in North Korea – the 68th anniversary of the founding of its “ruling political party”.

The Iran Nuclear Agreement is also in danger of being abandoned. 1 signifies all things nuclear. In fact, it was in October 1962 that the Cuban Missile Crisis put the whole world on edge. This involved leaders John F. Kennedy (USA) and Nikita Khrushchev (USSR) and Fidel Castro (Cuba).

And then there is the upsurge of authoritarianism, (nazi-ism) that is trying its best to take control of all life on Earth. Hate and violence go hand in hand.

It is imperative that we PAY ATTENTION to what is happening as the effort to drag us backwards  intensifies, and the attempt to normalize authoritarianism accelerates. While we are all distracted by very real and emotionally rousing events that are coming at us so rapidly, laws are being passed which make authoritarianism LEGAL.

Someone tweeted just recently “I long for the day when people wearing swastikas and people wearing Black Lives Matter tee shirts accept each other and just ‘get along'”. It is shocking to see the number of people who do not understand what nazi-ism actually is – an irrational belief in racial superiority – the ‘master race’ – racism at its MOST extreme. There is no middle ground once we reach that level of authoritarianism. If you resist its ‘authority’, you die. Yes, resistance continues and becomes more resolved, but under the most extreme danger of exposure. Resistance has to be coordinated in secret. It becomes ‘the underground’.

When we are no longer permitted to question authority, our WILL, (the feminine energy that all human beings possess), is completely trapped and restrained, and our lives are no longer our own. The regime OWNS us. When we can no longer express dissent, we are enslaved! Expressing outwardly what we feel inwardly propels us forward in the journey of life. And this is precisely why women’s rights are always under attack. If feminine energy were to attain equality in this man’s world, the whole system would fall apart – which it is currently doing.

“We are not what happened to us, we are what we wish to become.” ~Carl Jung

At the same time, we have to focus on creating the kind of world we want to live in – to set our priorities – and arrange our lives around them. If we give up on this, we give away our Will. By focusing on building a new way of life that makes the old way obsolete, we give ourselves a goal which can carry us through the inevitable rough spots ahead.

Without 1 there can be no other numbers. 1 is the nucleus, the atom, the beginning, the first step.

1 = leadership – and being ‘in the lead’. 1 also refers to leading our own lives – and being ‘led’.

1 = the “RACE” for superiority – actually BEING #1.

1 = contest and competition.

1 = the self ~ the individual.

1 = the ego (one’s sense of self).

1 = unevolving masculine aggression and contest (war)

1 = the divine masculine – the evolving man – (equality)

1 = action and speed.

1 = 1-step-at-a-time development (1 thing leads to another – cause and effect).

1 = the power of 1 ~ and the power of many 1s who are united in a common cause.

And this week there are many 1s affecting our lives. (10 is 1 multiplied by 10).

One of the challenges of the 1 energy is to speak up for ourselves and let it be known how we feel, instead of allowing uncomfortable situations to escalate without ever speaking up to clear the air. This means developing courage and determination (which are characteristics of 4).

Remember that guilt and blame are not emotions. They are judgments which may, or may not, be accurate. Judgments we have made over time, as well as those we have inherited from previous generations, create a belief system that affect all the decisions we make today.

There is an emphasis on relationship and loyalty this week. This can help us to untangle ourselves from hurts and insecurities of the past, so that we can BE in, and deal with, what’s happening in the present. Begin with a judgment you have made about how certain people or situations should be. Then look more closely at how they actually are, and how they became that way. If we cannot find the cause, changing the effect will be impossible. And so, we are going back and forth between areas of the past from which we must free ourselves, the emergencies of the present, and the potential in the present from which to create the future. There’s a lot going on in the evolving human condition right now.

There is no shame in not knowing all the answers, and we should not pretend to understand something if we don’t, or try to be someone we are not. Week 41 emphasizes the qualities of honesty and sincerity. We give these feelings consciousness when we express them not only in the words we speak, but also in the actions we take.

Week 41 is a 5 Week, and 5 is the number of all things ‘different’ – diversity – variety – the ‘spice of life’. 5 is physical and sexual. The 5 vibration helps us to LEARN from past and present mistakes and mis-steps, so that we can stop repeating them on the great karmic wheel of unlearned lessons.

5 represents learning from experience. 5 brings contrast to the openness that life is becoming – which enables us to see things more clearly, and many things for the first time, even though they have been there all along. We are all in the evolutionary process of understanding the concept of FREE WILL, and the absolute necessity to rescue and protect it.

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January 20 2017

JANUARY 20, 2017 ~ TURNING POINT

January 20, 2017 = 1 2 1. This is a very significant date in the human journey. These numbers reflect our position in the volatile space between one millennium and the next. We are experiencing the vibrational differences between the electrical masculine 1000s and the magnetic feminine 2000s. And the shocks will continue until we finally wake up to the enormity of what is happening.

While 1 signifies speed, action, and the start of something new, 2 slows everything down by drawing attention to important details which must be recognized and dealt with before real progress can be made.

1+2+1=4

4 is the number of order, foundation, method, system, facts and figures, and effective organization. 4 is the number of effectiveness. However, until we feel its powers of determination and purpose, 4 can create limitation, delay, and the feeling of being boxed-in. 4 teaches us that every problem has its answers and solutions if we are patient enough to find them – and then find the most effective way to put them into practice. 4 represents results through hard work. This confirms that although the journey of 2017 will not be easy, 4 gives us the power of perseverance.

We cannot solve a problem until we understand its true nature, and we are dealing with complex and dangerous matters now. The first step to stabilizing our position is acceptance of reality. Eyes wide open! Denial is easy to spot in this age of transparency – but the old guard cannot operate in openness and is trying desperately to push everything back into secrecy.

It’s OK to be afraid. Fear is a natural part of the emotional range, with its own power and purpose. It is fear that is waking people up right now! Fear is not the problem. Denial of fear is the problem. Indifference is the problem. Being paralyzed by fear is the problem, too. Constant distraction is the problem. As evolving beings, we must learn to accept what must be feared, and discard the petty or false fears which keep us tied to this floundering way of life.

January 20, 2017, marks the beginning of a serious segment of the journey in which humanity is starting to recognize the power of its own Will (feminine energy), which is rising up against the old ways of oppression, and the ridiculous notions of white supremacy and patriarchy. The war on women is real and terrifying, and women are fighting back.

Yin_and_Yang.svgThe Will is our ability to feel and sense. The Will is also MOTHER’S LOVE and the natural tendency to nurture and protect, and we all possess this energy, male and female alike. The Will (emotion) is YIN and the Spirit (consciousness) is YANG, both of which are different but equal – and interdependent. But this male-driven system must keep the feminine down in order to maintain its dominance. This cannot continue as the feminine 2000s unfold.

45 is also prominent today because it marks the inauguration of the 45th POTUS, which is the result of an election that occurred in Week 45 of 2016. Both 45 and 2016 add up to 9 – the number of endings, conclusions, awareness, and emotional healing. 4 = restriction, 5 = freedom. 9 is the most emotional number of all (from the heights of happiness to the depths of despair), and there is no doubt that people are experiencing extraordinary depths right now.

This numeric combination tells us that this is NOT the beginning of a new system, but the end of the old one – this unfair, out of balance, and utterly cruel way of life.

Donald Trump will bring the system down because that is what greed is bound to do in the end – consume itself. Racial matters are coming to a head because that is what the old class system IS – the race to be number 1 – “winner” take all. But that is not the true nature of life. We cannot discover our true potential while a person’s “value” is based on how much money they have, the color of their skin, the nature of their culture, their religion, or who they love. Life is not about winning. It is about living.

The 20th day of January 2017 connects us directly to the millennial energy of the 2000s, and reminds us that the NEW system will not be based on competition (1), but on cooperation (2). Peace will come through peaceful desire and diplomacy, not more war.

No matter what happens on the long and difficult road ahead, just remember that the human RACE is not a species. The human RACE is the system itself. The human RACE must end, so that a free humanity can begin…


 

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